Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Peace

I hate conflict. I hate arguing. I think it is because it doesn't matter if I win or lose I still end up feeling bad. Each person tries to make their point heard but wont listen to the other, and end up riling each other up beyond proportion, which happens quite often in my own household. I think I argue with my family so much because I always know they will be there for me. But I want to aim to argue with them less. I want to be as calm and peaceful with them as I am my friends. I hardly remember a single argument with any of my friends. I believe this hate of conflict is why my partner and I get along so well. He hates conflict more than me, and will avoid arguing with anyone, even his parents at all costs. He puts up with my imperfections, and I put up with his (though to be fair there aren't that many). I know you're thinking that it is not a healthy environment and that eventually feelings bottle up and one day we will implode abruptly and be ruined beyond repair of even the elder wand! But we are honest with each other and if something is weighing on our minds we speak openly. I mean we do burst into a fight once in a blue moon, but it usually lasts about 10 minutes and we come crawling back to each other.
So is it too late to make a new years resolution to live in calmer existence with my family? I know it is already february, but I went to buy a diary the other day and they are not yet on sale so I think it's acceptable.