Ah, Young Love.

Not young love as in we are young and in love (we are young though) but young as in new, new love. Not that it's love anyway, I mean come on, let's not get ahead of ourselves, please.

All I'm meaning to say is that I'm currently in that blabbing stage of my crush, the stage where all I want to do is talk about the guy I like, about how cute he his and how awesome he is and how he said this and how he did that.

And I just want to look at him! I just want to sit down (or stand in a slightly shadowed corner) and just...look at him. Which is weird coz I've been looking at this guy for years. I KNOW what he looks like. Besides...I'm kind of too afraid to. I don't want anyone to notice, our group couldn't keep a secret if their lives depended on it and the last thing I want is for it to become awkward(er). They'll all find out eventually though, this I know, I hope that maybe he won't get clued in though. However, knowing me I'll give it away, I've been half-seriously hitting on him for months anyway.

I just want to get to know him on that base level that you only share with best friends or boyfriends. I want to be that person that gets the late night phone call because he can't sleep because he's stressing about life.

Yet, alas, alack, I fear 'tis not to be...but what's a girl to do? I'm not one to force things, a strong believer in que sera, sera. If it's meant to be it will, it won't need any urging. It'd sure be nice though, I'd like a 'temporarily' or even a 'forever' if I can swing it.

"A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other...maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever."